kian is always saying dat i'm terribly pampered by my parents, i admit... i'm a spoilt princess... like wat my mum said, i live the life of 'yi lai shou shen, fan lai kou zhang'... i dun even hav to make my own bed, nor keep my own clothes, nor clean & tidy my own room... much less those household chores of washing the dishes, sweeping the floor, ironing... i even had my mum waking up to prepare my breakfast for me every morning... n my dad driving me to & fro my every tuitions...
though i'm fortunate to be so pampered, i believe dat's jus my parents' way of loving me... they'll try their very best to give me wat they can give me, but as for the rest, i'm on my own. my family is not rich, thus i'm financially independent. I dun get any allowance from my parents & i pay every of my expenses. this include my uni sch fees, hostel fees, books & printing, food, transport, hp bills, etc... dat is to say, i can survive on my own anytime, anyday. zai right! i'm oso amazed by my ability& is really proud of myself coz as a matter of fact, majority of my peers r still getting allowance from their parents every mth, n their parents uses their CPF to pay for their uni sch fees & expenses. i took a loan from the bank, thus i'm working hard to save money so dat i can return the loan at the end of my course. so though my bank a/c has more zeros than the rest, but all the money r for repaying my loan & thus i am not rich at all! in fact i'm even much poorer than everyone else...
this leads me to the point of me gg for an exchange. kian is right... i always act on impulse... though i very much wanted to go for an exchange, but i've to consider the circumstances... where will i get the $$? of course i do hav the $$ now, but wat will happen to my repayment of my loan if i were to use the $$ for exchange. I wont wan my parents to pay for me, they still hav to feed my 2 younger sisters & pay for their studies, plus the house loan, car instalments... i dun wan to add another burden... of course every family has house loan & car instalments & siblings... but as the eldest, i feel dat i've the responsibility to reduce my parents' burden.
next to consider will be the other factors... do i wan to take the risk of missing convocation? i miss all my frens... jus thinking of the idea dat i wont be able to see maine, weizhi, joyce, limin, hongseng, jinfen, shannon, munkeet, kaijie & all my dear frens during my final sem in sch makes me feel sad alr... i wont be able to bear to leave... how can i survive alone for 6 mths when i'm a person who's so afraid of loneliness?
gg exchange is gd, even better if kian can go along wif me... we've been thru so much, it'll be another turning pt for us. we'll be able to see the world tgth & travel tgth, it can even be considered as a graduation trip for us. n it's the last time i can get the chance to study abroad... once i step into the working world, it'll be endless work, work & more work... while i'm still young, still a student, i shd grab the oportunity to experience wat i've yet to experience right?
but the world is not jus abt urself...