Kind of enjoying myself.

It started on CNY eve when i woke up to 2 SMSes. "God is back" I did not catch it until I read another msg which wrote "Fowler is back". OMG, i could not believe it at all. Robbie Fowler is coming back to liverpool, what a news it is for liverpool faithful. I jumped out of bed sharing this piece of news with my dad, he too was happy for me! It was really a surprise move; never would i thought that this god will be back after booted out by houillier. It is something I always hope for even i noe its "impossible". Its really nice to have someone so passionate about Liverpool playing for liverpool. Hope he will find his form and rule as he god again. All the best Robbie.

Later that day in the evening, I had my 1st authentic, authorize, undisputed reunion dinner for 22 years. Dad had never be able to join us for dinner due to work committment. Can see that he's really happy that night, talking more than he usually does. Not just him, mum, sis and I are equally touched. We took a photo that i believe will stay as a wallpaper for dad's phone for a long time. Was almost eating with tears that night.

New year seems a bit different with dad around. Feels more complete. Everyone so happy to see my dad and my dad really enjoyed his day. nuthing much to say but everyone keep asking me to bring my dear along. haha, guess both of us not really ready. (actually what is there to be ready?)

Dear told me about how francis and pei pei were impressed by me during the bday. Went on saying they will be supportive and will help me convince aunt that i'm a good catch. Appreciate that really. Happy that someone else feels my sincerity. Francis also commented that I am a promising guy, which I really hope that his prediction will be true. It also makes me wanna fight and work harder for myself, dad, mum, sis and of course dear. Wanna makes lotsa $$ for our grand wedding.

Made one observation. Mum seems more supportive of my relationship. She seems more understanding with the difficulties I faced. Three cheers for you.

Dear must be very disappointed with me, cause i never bring her out this holidays. I really a freak, my whole brain keep thinking of studying. haha dear just have to suffer. Well i'm free tonight, mum said i need not come back with her from woodland. Maybe can plan something with you.



Kian

Had a bad week. It began with Liverpool losing to manure. Come'on this really the season that liverpool is better than manure. On paper and on form wise, its really disappointing that they lost last min to a set piece. When i saw the goal, my whole heart sank and i felt sick, as if i got the virus attack again. Fuck ass... With Chelsea and Arsenal to go, I really hope I have something to cheer on.

Main academic highlight, AA 202 presentation. I had fun working with my grp mates! However no one is really zai, then in the end our report and presentation like quite sub standard. Praying hard for at least a B.

Kind of slack off this week. Never really prep for classes. I NEED TO BUCK UP!!



Kian

yeah, dear is coming back from bedok to pei wo! even though he juz reached home from sch, he's coming all the way down again wif cheese pratas for me. *very touched* i noe dear really luv me very much, i luv u too dear! i'm the most xin fu gal!

Yes, I’m in a bad mood. Who wont be if u discover u got cheated? Walked out of class this morning happily, thinking I’ll get to see dear back in my room waiting for me, coz dat’s wat he promised me ytday nite, saying he’ll be in my room at 1030 waiting for me. Though I’m starving n having a little gastric, but I nv join KJ they all at the canteen coz I wan to eat wif dear. Was looking really fwd to seeing dear…
Who noe when I got back hall, I realized dat u r actually here to do ur 202 proj. well, wat can I say? I was really sad n disappointed… u dunno how hurt I feel inside. Feel like a big fool. U nv mentioned anything abt coming to do proj… but I shd hav noe better… Oni me will be so stupid n foolish to think dat u’ll actually come back hall early in the morning when ur lesson is at 230, jus for me… I shdnt hav been so naïve…
I wanted to go back str home after lesson, so dat I can hav more time to do my stuffs. But I came back specially for u, coz u told me u’ll be waiting for me in my room. came back w/o eatin even though i'm having gastric, tot u'll be there for me to eat wif me & sayang me... Y u din tell me earlier? I was really angry. I specially make time out for u, but wat did I get in return? U din even ask if I’m tired or hungry… y wld I care abt dat @#%$#% biz com prez!
Forget it, I’m back home now, well-protected… oni family is the best...

went to bain's 21st bdae party jus now, enjoyed myself wif all the catching up wif everyone, the food was nice even though it's vegetarian. bian's mum made a lot of pastries dat i nv see b4 one. haha...
aniway, due to the fact dat this was a surprised bdae party planned by bain's bf without her knowledge, a lot of ppl wasnt invited(think hongyi's communication wif him got screwed up). realised i'm one of the top 8 frens coz due to the limited among of food, bain's bf told hy to call 8 ppl frm vj oni. *diaoz* was very paiseh coz i actually asked gb n wx abt sharing prez when they wasnt even invited. dun feel gd...
bain's bf was very sweet, he actually blindfolded her all the way from town after watching movie to costa sands( of course he drove lah). bain really had a big big surprise, think she's really touched to the max. haha...

went to meet dear & table at chinatown after the party, went ee how's house to watch soccer: liverpool vs manU... well, liverpool lost 1-0 & dear was really really very very sad. he said dat he felt like the virus has attacked him again n he felt terribly sick. cheer up lah, jus look fwd to liverpool's nx winning match.

finally finished baking my pineapple tarts for the CNY, yeah!!! this thing has been on my 'list of to do things' for a very long time liao, finally 1 wk b4 the new yr found time to complete the task. used up 1kg of pineapple fillings, no bad, think quite nice, shd bring some to dear tmr. he din managed to try the pineapple tarts dat i baked last yr, coz we r not together yet! haha...

so fast nx wk will be CNY liao, n i havnt even buy any shoes yet!! ah..... haha... but bought quite a lot of clothes lah. went shoppping wif dear n yx ytday, he bought all his new yr clothes+shoes in jus 1 day! chop chop settle, gd! but gals diff leh, jus like wat iris said, guys go shopping is str route one, gals will take a route dat has a lot of bends, twists, curves n U-turn! which i think is very true. haha...

anyway, saw a pair of shoes from xodus dat i like, but dun hav my size, dunno if i shd go n find... coz dun think i'll wear it very often(slippers nicer mah). maybe i shd change liao, mummy always nag i go everywear oso wear slippers. bleah!

Was watching song sister stories and death has struck me again. To me, death is the most cruel thing in the world. I must admit i fear death. Not that I am afraid of the pain, or that i will not get to play soccer, or not able to listen to the beatles, but to be separated from my love ones.

Back to the show, Sun Yat Sen was on his death bed and Song Qinglin finally had some private time with him (He was busy with revolution up to that point!). They started talking about their fond memories and stuffs. Mrs Sun was real strong, tearing but not crying, just to make sure that final good bye will not be a say one. It was then I thought of death again, leaving my family members behind. Worst still, leaving my lifetime companion alone to wait for her turn. I imagined that I would be hugging dear tightly on my deathbed, like how i always hug her when she asks for one. This time round i will not bear to let go and I believe dear will not too. *hugz*

It was then I realized I am thinking too much and hence, I off the TV. I mean a time will come for my turn to die and by thinking all these now will only make the good bye sorrow when it happens.

Like I told dear, it is best for husband and wife to die close to each other, if not at the same time. ya, close not in the proximity sense. I have the responsibilty to live to the longest and likewise for her. This is so we can be together 'forever'. So must stay healthy always, dear. Do jog with me when I ask you so :)



Kian

A new term has started, another 12 weeks of hell. Thought i did pretty satisfying last semester and i know this semester will be better. Already finding 201 quite interesting, though all the readings kill.

This sem will be pretty different. No longer staying in hall and proximity between dear and i increases. Understand that dear is quite uncomfortable about this arrangement, me too, especially when our relationship are concern. Guess its just a matter of time we adapt to this and i will also make an effort to accompany u more.

Went out with dear today. She treated me some japanese buffet. Not nice. But what was nice was that I got to wrap my arm around dear outside starbuck, felt lovely then~ The date never ended on a good note. I'm kinda pissed with dear and she kinda pissed with me. Hope this won't last long.

Told yexuan about it and he said maybe guys should not treat gals too well. What u think? Well I dun even think i treating well enough yet. However i thought I have given my near best effort. I mean there are so many things for me to balance. You, studies, my family and friends. Not forgeting my soccer matches and games and many more. Dear i will always give u more if i can, really.

Let me try ringing you once more...



Kian

what are u.
ya killing me.
love u, hate u more.
feel like killing u
u never noe how to love me.
ya a lousy mother

never fails to irritate me
never fails to piss me
never please me
never supportive
never show good example
never fail to show me off, when u are not the one to be credited

you sux

i feel like moving out
i feel like tearing up your pic
i feel like pushing u to ground

I HATE U

Wonder y i dun like to communicate with u
Wonder y i never do things for u
wonder y i'm always unhappy with u
wonder y i always think that ya in wrong

Now u should noe y

Dun understand y dad likes u
dun understand how sis can endure
dun understand why i love u

I wanna stay
I wanna run
I wanna be happy
I wanna have a mum

Let me be happy
Let me do what I want
Let me grow
Let me escape
Let me go

A slient cry deep within
A pain no one understands
A crazy mum
A crazy son

What are u



Kian

finally... my 21st bdae party took place ytday nite! it was a huge success, really had a wonderful party! received lotsa prezzies... it was really nice of gavi to buy me a ipod nano, it was great, so are the bags(from big big to small small for all occasions! haha...), chains, watch(been wanting a nice nice one for very long, yeah!), vouchers(Oooo can buy new hp now!), ebase short(i told maine to get dat for me! hehe...), guess wallet(real nice, bet my bro muz hav spent quite some $$) and all the perfume, body pdts...
the big bdae 'key cake' dat dadddy n mummy bought for me was real nice n pretty. feels real great to hav so many dear frens, childhod playmates, seniors, juniors, teachers, uncles, aunts, cousins there celebrating my 21st bdae wif me. i'm the most blessed gal in the world! hahaa.... I'm a happi gal!
the present dat melt me was dear's big box of 21 gifts... really din expect such a wonderful surprise. it really melt my heart... i noe dear has been spending lotsa time on my bdae prez, thks dear... i luv u! so many ppl r so envy of me, haha... jiahui bain they all wanted to go for 'lian ee hui' to find a bf b4 their 21st bdae! so cartoon!
was really surprised by the video dat u made for me, din expect it at all, n the ppl dat u've got... so sweet of u to find them...
bet u dunno wat's the thing dat made me cried so hard in the end dat nite... it's seeing the last gift... this blog dear... i noe u r doing this all for me, u dunno how touched i am on seeing this. it really goes down to the bottom of my heart... u noe wat dear, one of my bdae wish.. i wish dat we can be together forever... i wan to grow old wif u too! *muacks*

jun

judging from the title u guys should know that everything is a success. Manage to surprise dear at the place, right time and right atmosphere. She was not feeling particularly happy but i made her day! haha

On the party itself, I felt really flattered with everyone praising me, head was real big. Not sure how dear felt but her ego was definitely raised. Hope i behaved well to make u free proud dear!

k better days ahead



Kian

Yes, at last i completed all your gifts. except for the cake and the flower though. One day lesson missed but i guess its all worth it. Anywork, the work towards the end is quite scrappy due to resource constraint, really sorry about that. However i am confident that u can still feel my sincerity.

Hmmm.... one big problem remains. How should i give u the gifts. Well i rush though the whole night sleeping only at 830 this morning cause i thought i wanna give you on thurs night. What do you think? Or would u prefer me to give u on friday so that u can show off to ya friends? How about the actual day itself? Seriously i wanna avoid giving on the party. Thought that u definitely be surprised if i give u tonight. Only problem is the mood may not be there. How ah?

Think I'm more or less fix with tonight. Bet u will be surprise. Hope everything goes well. *praying*



Kian

She say its very easy.

1) Cheque
2) Car, to drive her around
3) BIG BIG DIAMOND RING
4) DIGI Camera
5) all the money in my bank. hahha so little!
6) All As for the rest of the uni result
7) All my love... thats easy
8) Nice and romantic celebration for all festivals and anniversary
9) House
10) Slimming Voucher
11) Nice nice clothes
12) Nice Nice jewellery
13) Makeover voucher
14) Unlimited amount of food... meaning must 'yang' her
15) 5000 jigsaw puzzle!!
16) Fireworks with her name written on it
17) Candle light dinner... must bao the whole place with ppl playing violin to her
18) 99 roses with the 100th given personally
19) Always say sweet sweet thing to her
20) Take her around the world
21) Grant her all her wishes

Three words... DOT DOT DOT...

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna grow old with you...

Man i giving up decorating this blog! looks time consuming and chim. Maybe u can teach me. Anyway just came back from shopping your gifts. finally got everything! hahaha.


kian

Dear, a happy birthday to you. Not long ago I was asking justine what she thinks i can get for you for your birthday. She said it must be something that i dislike. There u go, our own blog for us to jot dowm all our lovely memories.

Wanted to do this at a much earlier date, but always find myself either with you, or i'm just too busy with your other gifts. Else i could have tell you more about ur big gift prep process.

Anyway a short entry first. Let me go find out how to deco this thingy.



Kian

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