yes, i came here happily wanting to put an entry abt how enthu and happy i am in looking fwd to vday. but... after the page appeared, i really experienced the words 'u can be happi now but sad the next sec'. yes, it's oni 1 sec difference n my mood changed entirely. obviously i saw ur entry, n obviously it affected my mood.
but after thinking abt it, i still wanna put down my original happi entry:
today is sunday, 2 more days it'll be vday. this yr's vday will be a very special one coz it'll be the first vday for dear&me! i'm really excited abt it, coz dear&me hav booked a chalet @ chervon for 3 days to celebrate our 1st vday togather! yeah! lallaalalalalala.... we r planning to jio gavi for a frenship day gathering the 1st nite, then the 2nd day will be jus a day specially reserved for dear&me! we'll go shopping to buy food for our romantic bbq dinner(well, of course bbq is not anywhere equivalent to romantic, but i'm sure it'll be an unforgettable one). it has been a long time since dear&me spend one whole day together jus wif each other. looking fwd to tue!
yup, dat's my original happi entry, but i really dunno wat's my mood now, jus noe dat i'm trying hard to compose myself & sort out some feelings... u called me after ur tuition, but i din pick up, coz i dunno wat mood n tone will i use if i pick up ur call.
maybe wat i wanna tell u is please dun feel stress dear... i dun mean to make u feel anything like dat. u noe me best, even if i'm angry, i cant make myself be angry wif u for long one lor. a little pacification i'll be smiling again. guess we r still all learning the essents of being in a relationship. well, but nobody can say dat they r a master of it, so it's naturally for all these to happen once in a while. so jus relax n enjoy the "sour, sweet, bitter,hot" lor! i noe u hav been wanting to spend more time on ur studies n stuffs, though i chilled u for not putting in effort for vday, but u noe i say say one only mah, i wont expect u to really spend 24AUs on me one lah! i'm a lazy pig too, if u ask me go n piece a 5000 jigsaw for u, haha... lalallalala... anyway, doing something nice for someone really needs to come from the heart, if not, u'll oni feel stress n pressure. this i can understand. wif my bdae so near vday, i noe u've already exhausted all ur energy and resources so it's time u recuperate too! *hug hug*
but maybe i might be wanting to say the opposite too. like how sad i was when i read ur entry saying u r facing a crisis n being pressured not from within, to put in effort for vday. i tot since it's our 1st vday, both of us will be happi n excited abt it, we'll be filled wif energy & motivation to do something special for each other. was i wrong? well, maybe u r jus not dat kind of person ba. but i still feel sad dat u dun feel anything from ur heart to do something for me. or maybe u did but u r jus lazy & hav no time. but if it comes from ur heart, can laziness n no time covered dat motivation? i dunno...